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The Most Precious Person In My Life

No one in the world can love a girl more than her father

My daughter was born September 5th, 6 years ago. I will never forget that special day; it was the day I fell in unconditional love with the most beautiful girl I’d ever seen. On this day, I held my firstborn, my little girl, in my arms for the very first time. We stared at each other intently. As she looked back at me with eyes, the color of the richest chocolates, I felt my heart spiral to my toes and the air escape my lungs. I saw innocence in her eyes, a bright curiosity and beauty. My greatest happiness in life will forever be the day Kayla entered this world.

As Kayla grows, I become more and more fearful. I feel as if there’s a pile of stones resting on my shoulders, constantly; I fear of failing her as a father. I want want to be the best version of myself for her. I strive to teach her lessons so that she can grow up to be secure and happy. Unfortunately, at first, I was surrounded by individuals that believe girls shouldn't be tough and should only be raise to cook and clean at home. I knew that wasn’t right because her mom is the toughest person I know. I want to raise Kayla to be just like her mom: strong, independent, and smart. I want to watch her show the world how to do it on her own.

She is almost 7; I've enjoyed witnessing her beautiful qualities develop. She is funny and sassy! I have the privilege of spending every weekend with Kayla. I make sure to look my best for her. I clean my room, shave, and wear my Sunday best. I always have a small gift waiting for her when she walks in. When we’re together we spend most of our time playing at the local park and watching Disney movies at home. I’m at my happiest when I’m with my daughter.

I recently learned her favorite Disney character is Moana from the movie, Moana. She said she likes Moana because she’s pretty; she sings and she saved her village. My daughter admires courage and strength. That's what I want to be for her. I've made my goal to obtain a job, so that I can provide for her. I want to spoil her- buy her all of her favorite Disney movies and a Moana doll. Every day my PALS job coach and I look for jobs online that can be carried out safely and in accordance with CDC mandates. Since COVID, I’ve been challenged to find creative ways to stay productive at home. I watch videos online about cooking, handy-work, and job interview tips.

It’s been challenging for me to see Kayla safely to and pursue my goals. But she remains my source of motivation. This year I will find a stable job, move into my own apartment and spend more time with my daughter. I will tirelessly continue to improve myself, so I can be more like Moana, strong for my daughter.

I wish my Daughter A Happy Valentines Day